My Youtube Channel

So, I have had a youtube channel in my early 20s in which I have posted funny sketches and song covers. Since then, I have deleted/made those videos private for reasons I….well, I just don’t like them lol.

As of Quarantine situation….I’ve been singing a lot more due to boredom. I even bought a ukelele to learn a new skill.

I thought maybe it would be a good idea to revive my old youtube channel and put content on there. So, I thought of sharing it with you guys! Hope y’all like and come visit me on there too! It’s scary at the thought I’d have some people view me singing, but hey it’s a start!!

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Quarantine Karaoke

I literally joined tiktok specifically for Quarantine and I’ve been posting some singing videos on there. Before getting tiktok, I was like what is that? But I have been really loving the music side of tiktok, i can stay on this app for hours.

Quarantine Nails pt. 2 ( Gelish Structure Gel)

This video was on tiktok, I got insecure and deleted it. Anyway, I’ll post it on here to show you that it’s possible to get long manicured nails during quarantine.

Two essential products used are as followed:

Steps:

1) prep your nail using a e-file or regular nail file and you need to just gently create texture to your nails. Don’t file too much or you will thin out your nails and it will hurt bad!!! don’t do it!

2) Cleanse the nails to prepare them for application. If you don’t have a cleanser you can use 70 or 90% alcohol to remove any oils or residue on your nails. This helps any nail glue or gel polish to stay on longer!

3) I used nail tips and filed them to even it out to my nail bed. Then shaped to the length I want. You can use your own nails as well if you like the length of your own nails and would just like to add the structure gel to give your real nails strength.

4) Once you have the nail shape you like, you can go ahead and put a first thin layer of the structure gel and cure it for 45 seconds under a uv lamp.

5) Then apply a second thicker coat and cure it for 60 seconds.

6) cleanse your nails and apply polish of your choice.

I like the structure gel better than acrylic because if you have the uv lamp, you are curing it the same way as you would with shellac polishes.

All products are from Amazon:

Gelish Structure gel – Gelish Gelish structure gel… https://www.amazon.ca/dp/B01M0SH4XX?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share

Orly Cleanser- Orly Gel Fx 3-in-1 Cleanser 4… https://www.amazon.ca/dp/B005SNOXO8?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share

UV LAMP – UV LED Nail Lamp, Terresa 72 Watt… https://www.amazon.ca/dp/B07RDGKNDP?ref=ppx_pop_mob_ap_share

my old lamp is from Sun UV and works well too- https://www.amazon.ca/dp/B07M6VF293/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_api_i_PvTSEbPX5RQH8

Overall, I found that this method is easier than acrylic sets especially for beginners. It took me about 1hr 30 to complete, which is not bad. It’s a flexible formula in that you can use your real nails and extend it to desired length or use nail tip. Let me know if you guys tried these out or are interested in trying them out.

My Online Presence

Note to all my online followers:

It’s so easy to judge someone based off their online presence. If you have social media and use it quite often many fall in the trap of being portrayed as something you aren’t in real life. Please don’t assume a person’s life based on what is being posted online. It may be that I like a particular post or would like to share my opinion on something. Regardless of what the case may be, don’t get caught up in what people post.

I am a private person as much as I do have a social media presence. I just like to post, but please don’t get too caught up in an idea of me or anyone who posts frequently. Yes I am a bubbly person in real life, but I also don’t post my sad or angry days online. If you were to analyze my posts on social media to get some sort of idea of who I am, you might think I’m insane (one minute posting a quote on happy relationships and the next minute I have a really deep quote about self-love). If I like something, I post it. If I want to share in hopes it helps someone, I’ll post it. I don’t have to be experiencing my own problems as I post whatever it is I’m posting.

For the most part, I only share happy moments of my life if I do feel like sharing online. You won’t see anything that is too personal because that’s not what I choose to post. The difference with social media is that you can pick and choose what to post and in real life that really isn’t the case, things just happen (good and bad). You only see half truths so it’s best you go offline and get to know the real person, the old school way.

Peace, love, and happiness always!

 

 

 

 

 

Overthinking

Hi, I haven’t posted in awhile and I apologize friends.

I am a Virgo and as much as I don’t believe in horoscopes, I know this much is true, that Virgos are over-thinkers. Kind of like that scene in Sponge-Bob when all the little Sponge-Bobs were running frantic in his firey brain tossing files and going crazy.

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It’s sometimes hard for me to communicate how I feel because my anxiety reminds me that if I mess it up, the person on the other end would judge me when in reality they probably don’t care as much as I would. It’s not that big of a deal.

Reality: IT’S NOT SERIOUS!

BRAIN: IT’S SO SERIOUS!

I’m sure I’m not the only one that said or did something and replayed that moment over and over thinking if I made the right decision.

Why am I talking about this? Well, my overthinking mind has led me to not asking all the questions I wanted to know because I’m thinking of how it’s going to sound. I think my problem for the most part is I’m always 10 steps ahead and I’m trying to live in the moment and I think over the years, I have gotten better at it. I’m not saying I don’t over think anymore, I do occasionally. However, I’ve learned a few things along the way like self-love.

I knew that I didn’t feel good, I knew I couldn’t sleep so I just tried to trust the process. I learned to train my mind to believe in the timing of my life. I don’t think there’s really any formula to completely rid of things we want to change in our lives unless we fully admit things about ourselves we want to change and how willing you are to change it. It really is just will and mind power. In other words, as Jay-Z says to speak things into existence.

I learned that if it wasn’t now, another thing will come along that’s better. Missed opportunities are pieces of the puzzle that lead you to what you are destined for. I’ve learned that comparisons won’t change your current situation, so stop worrying and start creating a life you want for yourself.

Some of the things that helped me stop overthinking:

  1. Journal/blogging -writing out my problems or just putting thoughts into words helped me see things clearly and put my mind into perspective of what’s truly important
  2. Time away from people -I’m an ambivert and as much as I love company and people, I love quiet me time to help me re-energize so I can talk to people again.
  3. De-Cluttering -throwing away excess and keeping things I need rather than have them all around me, helped clear my mind to what truly matters to me
  4. Cultivating Gratitude -being grateful everyday for things I have rather than not have put my mind at ease instead of worry about things

 

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Hi, today marks the 27 years I’ve been on this earth

I was never a fan of throwing birthday parties. I liked going to them, but never really liked the work that went behind throwing one. I think I liked them less as I got older because I knew people couldn’t show up and everyone is on a different schedule. Also, I hated the process of whether to do it at home or outside. If I did it at home, I had to buy decor, set up, prepare food, host, and clean up after. If I did it outside, I had to see what places would be good for a group of friends to go and if there are any places I can book near or on my birthday.

Every year, I did a small thing with just my family. No clubs or debuts (traditional Filipino version of a Quinceañera), no big celebration ever. Boring…I know. I remember Grade 3, I invited my entire class and only one girl came and ever since I just liked having intimate birthday settings. Sounds pretty pathetic, so this year I wanted to change that a bit and get out of my comfort zone.

I reserved a Mexican restaurant Wednesday night and this place that rents out ping pong tables for a group of my friends. Should be fun, but I don’t really know why I’ve been stressing about it. I have this dire need to please people! It’s ridiculous and I shouldn’t feel this way ever. I should just enjoy my birthday with people I like to hang out with. I always think they might think it’s lame. Hosting and entertaining is not really my specialty, so this is new territory.

I am however pretty proud of myself that I actually got the courage to do something out of the ordinary and invite people to my party. I’m pretty nervous and excited. I’ll be sure to post pictures of the event the day after. I’ll let you guys know how it goes.

Here’s me on my 1st birthday party and just like getting super drunk on your 19th birthday….I don’t remember any of it.


How does it feel to be 27?

Shhhhhh….Old. My 20s have been such an interesting time period, well I say this because I don’t quite remember my pubescent years besides hideous fashion choices and poor taste in guys (frosted tips were never a good look).

Any advice?

If you are reading this under the age of 20 or in your 20s, just note that no one is the perfect adult. There is no manual for adulthood, you just wing it…like I did most of my high school days. There are moments you feel like you’ve hit rock bottom and you can’t get out, don’t worry you will get out. Everything just takes time and no one will ever be the perfect adult. Social media can be your enemy at times because people may seem to have their life together and you don’t, that’s not true.

Don’t compare your beginnings to someone else’s middle.

I am the expert at failing things, I fail because I do stuff. I say you should fail and anyone that tells you that failing is wrong, is Satan LOL. When you fail you get better in life and you become stronger. Take risks as cliche as that sounds. Everything takes time and patience. I’ve mentioned in my previous blog post that you should never settle until you’ve accomplished all the things you wanted to do in life. Ever! People will tell you that hobbies can never turn into careers, don’t listen. These days anything can turn into a career with proper execution. Don’t let the doubters kill your dreams and don’t let your own doubt kill your dreams.

Never stop doing what you love and cultivate gratitude. ❤

 

 

 

First Day of Hot Yoga

This year I’ve been bad with my health. I haven’t been eating right, I watch a ton of Netflix (the abnormal amount), I use my phone a lot, I sleep late most of the time, and I’ve been slacking on doing any type of physical activity. In a way I was consciously aware that I’ve been neglecting my health and therefore causing me to stress out, be moody, and it brought out a lot of negative thoughts.

Then I had an epiphany…

I was surfing the web during my lunch hour and found Yoga. HOOOOT YOGA! I’ve heard people talk about how Yoga is great and life changing.

  1. It helps them with joint pains….I have that
  2. It helps with posture….my mom says I have terrible posture
  3. And it makes you sweat out all the bad toxins in your body….I have a load of that, and it overall makes you more flexible and yadi yadi yada

So I whipped out my credit card signed up for this deal of $40 for 30 days. Once you register you can see all the class information, workshops, programs, and you can sign up for classes. UHHH-MAAY-ZING.

Today was my first yoga class. It was an hour long regular power yoga class in a hot room. Basically the yoga instructor walks around and tells you what poses to do (i.e. upward dog, downward dog, etc). I pretty much just followed everyone and most of the stuff she said I kind of had an idea of what they were. Let me tell you this, it’s my first time being in actual Yoga studio/class. I never liked joining workout classes by myself because I found it intimidating and I’m just an awkward human so I felt like people would judge me…IDK. However, I was wrong because everyone was so friendly and it was all around a friendly atmosphere.

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If you are new to hot yoga like myself here are some tips:

  1. Get a big water bottle with a cold drink filled with electrolytes in it (it helps you have more energy through out that hour in a hot room)
  2. Take breaks if you need to because if you don’t, you’ll feel woozy like I did. I can’t deter sometimes if I’m pushing myself too hard.
  3. Bring a towel, you will sweat buckets…SERIOUSLY
  4. I would bring  my own Yoga mat if you have one, if you hate germs and it’s just better…but they do supply mats if you need it

During the cool down they hand out cold towels to put on your head and it’s feels amazing especially being in that hot room. Oh and when you walk out of that room and feel that slight wind….oh baby!

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Despite getting dizzy from the heat for like a minute or so (what an amateur lol), I must say I feel so much better. Like my body feels like it realigned itself. I honestly feel like I can be Spider-Man and can swing thru buildings. My legs/feet used to hurt when I sit for awhile and stand afterwards, but they don’t hurt surprisingly. I also feel like I have more energy now.

If you haven’t tried yoga, I highly recommend it. I just signed up for 4 more classes next week. I feel like this is going to be my new thing!

After seeing half my family experiencing all kinds of illnesses, I took it upon myself to try and change my lifestyle and I’m glad I found something that works. I also enjoy HIIT cardio as long as I have company. I say just get out there and do more for your health, these days it’s so easy to get caught up with the stresses of life or because we enjoy food too or enjoy a lot of the things that make us more tired or negative that we neglect being healthy.

I was always reluctant on joining classes with people, but I did it. These past few months have seriously made me reevaluate myself. I think once you realize something wrong or you feel like you’re not yourself, it could be your lifestyle choices. As you reach your mid 20s, that’s a crucial time to really look at signs and not slack on our health. It was good back when we were 12 and could stuff 10 donuts in one sitting and not look fat, but it’s soooooo much harder to lose the weight you gain from eating out everyday at 26.

So what do I think of yoga? From a scale of 1 to 10, I give it a solid 10.5.

The place I chose is a company called Power Yoga. If you are in Canada definitely check out their website and see the various programs/workshops they offer. They are pretty good over there. 🙂

 

 

Veronica Lodge in the 70s

Hey all,

I wanted to do a series of looks every Wednesday on this blog of TV/Movie Inspired looks.

Growing up, I was a fan of Archie Comics and Veronica Lodge was my queen! People mostly hated her, but I loved her. She had this mystery and girl boss mentality that I was a fan of.

A few months back I got into the Riverdale series on Netflix and it’s one of my guilty pleasures. Besides some of the cheesy anecdotes the show is pretty awesome. For the most part Veronica’s looks consist of structure whether it’s long capes, fitted black dresses, a-lined skirts, minis and pearls. I say she’s a more Vampy Blair Waldorf. Throw in a wine lip colour and your set to rule the school of Riverdale High.

So I decided I’d recreate Ms. Veronica Lodge’s look:

  • top-Uniqlo
  • plaid skirt-Uniqlo
  • structured bag-Aldo

Look is pretty easy and something you probably already have in your closet.

See you guys next time. Leave me suggestions on which character I should create my next look. Thank you for stopping by!

-Beatrice xx

It’s okay to be sad sometimes

 

In the moment of impact (i.e. breakup, job loss, death), sometimes things…no matter how minor or drastic happens in our lives can make us feel defenseless. Yes, at that very  moment it sucks because you’ve invested yourself in it, you’ve put in the effort…you tried you’re very best. First thing to overcome loss is, to acknowledge that you did everything you could in your power for something that wasn’t meant for you. It’s part of life to experience these moments. You probably feel or felt that that was it for you…he or she was it and you would never find anyone else or that was your dream job, you don’t know or want anything else. Failure or loss is one step closer to finding your true calling so don’t worry your little heads.

You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream

At that very moment you experience it even weeks after, you will feel it and it hurts like a bitch. God, if I had a nickel for every person that told me “don’t be sad” I’d be rich. Yes, it’s not good to be sad, it’s not good to put yourself down. It’s also not good to bottle those feelings up. Release every emotion you have…express it in whatever way you want.

  • cry
  • cry watching When Harry Met Sally or Pretty Woman
  • write it out on paper, rip it to shreds, and burn it
  • scream into a pillow
  • scream in a secluded outdoor spot
  • slam poetry
  • join boxing

When you release all these emotions you are paving the path/easing in to letting go. You are born to feel, so don’t let someone tell you not to be what you are or  tell you how you feel in the current moment. Who are they to tell you that? I know it could be that they are trying to help, but I don’t think that’s the right way to go about it. In order to find true happiness within yourself is:

  • accepting it happened…so yes, it’s okay to be sad…it’s NORMAL
  • knowing you did everything you could…you tried and that’s what matters

Lastly, time heals everything. Time….time…TIMEEEE! I’m not going to lie, I didn’t see this to be true at first.

I thought my only option was to run back to the person that hurt me and was completely wrong for me because I couldn’t imagine not having them in my life. Then months went by and I realized that it was in fact true, time does heal. You grow and you begin to understand people and you realize what you want in someone or something.

I don’t see any of the problems I’ve faced as a loss, I see them as lessons learned. I see loss as motivation to do better, to be better. I see loss as a chance for me to create better opportunity. I am 25 years old, I have so much to live for and I was worried about a tiny fraction of my life and not looking at the bigger picture. Most of the time we are caught up by these changes that we forget to push forward and find solutions.

Always remember that as humans, we need to feel. Don’t feel weird for being sad or crying. Let it out because that is a chance for you to move on from it by just giving yourself time, give yourself a break. Forgive yourself and forgive others that have wronged you. Be open to new opportunities. I hope that in time, you are able to take on new challenges to love again, don’t be afraid to because life is crazy, stupid, and wonderful like that. We are all just beautiful imperfect humans, so we should help and support each other to be better.

 

New York, I love you

New York, I love you

What is it about this place? It’s different from any city I come back to. I feel like it’s alive in some way. It has it’s own heart beat. It’s the city that never sleeps.

So much art, architecture, sights, sounds and culture all wrapped into one metropolis, concrete jungle. I love getting lost in big cities, figuring out subway stations, seeing the colourful and eccentric people, and presently experiencing a new place. If you stop and look around you, you will find that by wandering and being “lost” you find exactly what you’re looking for.

Here are some of my favourite places in New York:

1) Central Park

 

2) Buildings, Rocky Feller, and Broadway

 

3) MOMA